爱的服事:门徒洗基督的脚The Service of Love, or The Disciple Washing Christ's Feet
THE TREE OF LIFE by Octavius Winslow
The Service of Love, or The Disciple Washing Christ's Feet
"A certain immoral woman heard Jesus was there and brought a beautiful jar filled with expensive perfume. Then she knelt behind him at his feet, weeping. Her tears fell on his feet, and she wiped them off with her hair. Then she kept kissing his feet and putting perfume on them." Luke 7:37-38
We have considered one of the most instructive and impressive acts of our Lord's life. His washing the disciples' feet. Scarcely less so is that one which is now to engage our study, and which we place by its side- the disciple washing the lord's feet. The incident is one of those occurrences which illustrates the reciprocal interest which exists between Christ and His people. On His part, redeeming love and condescending grace; on theirs, the warmest affection and the most unreserved service.
We need not speculate upon the identity of the woman who stole into Simon's house to perform this act of love to her Savior. But little is known of her history. The only event recorded of importance to know is, her true conversion to Christ, and this fact will contribute to the praise of Jesus and the glory of God when the annals of the world and the exploits and pomp of the great will be buried in eternal oblivion.
How indistinctly do we understand the nature, or estimate the importance of conversion. It is the only event in our history worthy of a thought. It is the one event of our present life, which moulds and colors all our endless future. All other events are band impertinences in comparison of this one. Converted or unconverted ! is the grand question. Converted- "life eternal!" Unconverted- "eveslasting punishment!" So spoke Him who is eternal truth.
Let us turn to the woman who washed the Savior's feet. We are not to identify her with Mary, sister of Lazarus, who was of Bethany, nor with Mary Magdalene, who is supposed to have acquired this appellation because she was born in Magdala, an unimportant town of the tribe of Manasseh. But she, doubtless, resided in the city of Nain, and is described as "a woman in the city," where in His walks of usefulness Jesus met her, to whom He preached the gospel of His grace -a gospel of glad tidings for poor, lost sinners- and who by His Spirit He drew to Himself in penitence, faith, and love.
And now we are to view her as sitting at His feet, bathing them with her warm tears of affection, and illustrating the sweet service of love. She is described as a sinner. Was she a sinner above all that dwelt in the city of Nain? Was she by nature viler than us? No, in the strong language of Scripture, "All have sinned, and have come short of the glory of God." "There is none righteous, no, not one." We are all included in man's fall from original righteousness; all are conceived in sin and born in iniquity; all are by nature wholly depraved and universally tainted. "The heart is deceitful above all things, and desperately wicked." This is the first lesson we learn in grace, the first stage we take in conversion- the lesson of our sinnership.
If, my reader, the Lord is for the first time setting you to learn this lesson, if the fact has burst upon your mind as with electric power, startling you from a profound slumber, yes, awakening you from the sleep of death, hail with joy this new-born revelation of yourself to yourself, as the dawn of that day of grace which will assuredly terminate in an eternity of glory. Oh, it is a grand thing to learn spiritually and experimentally that we are sinners! To know it not merely in the judgment, but from the heart. To acknowledge it not only with the lip in the public service of the sanctuary, but to confess it in the private devotion of the closet, with the mouth in the dust, beneath the cross of Immanuel.
Be assured of this, as of a most vital truth, that Christ will have no gracious dealings with you in the way of pardon, but in your capacity as a sinner. "He came not to call the righteous, but sinners to repentance." "He came to seek and to save that which was lost." "This is a faithful saying, and worthy of all acceptaance, that Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners." "Sinners, of whom," says Paul, "I am chief." The Pharisee despised this poor woman because she was a sinner, but Jesus threw around her the shield of His sin-forgiving love.
But she was more than a sinner- she was a penitent sinner. God had given her a broken heart and a contrite spirit, and this had humbled her at His feet. Has He, my reader, wrought this grace in your soul? The world thinks meanly of a man who thinks meanly of himself; but God's estimate of self-abhorrence and man's estimate are essentially and widely different. The world passes him by as a being beneath its notice and regard, but God says, "To this man will I look, even to him who is of a broken and humble spirit, and who trembles at my word."
Make a personal and serious application of this truth to yourself, my reader. Has your proud spirit been humbled? Has the inmost and hidden fountain of evil been unveiled to your eye! Has Jesus, by His Spirit and truth and ministers, met you pacing along the highway of sin and rebellion, and shown to you the leprosy of sin, as, like a pestilential and fatal plague, it touched and tainted all within! Solemn, momentous questions!
But how sweet and blessed is the grace of repentance! To lie in the dust before God is at once the most humiliating and the most exalting condition; it is the bitterest and yet the sweetest experience of the believers life. There is no sweetness tasted of pardoning grace until this bitter. Like the little book which John received from the angel's hand and ate, which was "to the belly bitter, but in the mouth sweet as honey," so godly grief for sin is at first bitter as gall, but afterwards sweet as honey, in the experience into which it brings the soul of God's forgiving love.
She was also a pardoned, saved sinner. Her sins had been great, but the blood of Jesus had proved greater, and had prevailed to wash them all away. We too much overlook this assured truth- and its oversight is the secret cause of much spiritual despondency- the present salvation of a child of God. Salvation is always referred to in the divine Scriptures of truth in the present tense. "By grace you are saved." "He has saved us." We shall never be more really saved than we now are if we believe in Jesus. Our salvation is not a past or a future blessing to be enjoyed, but a present one. Our sins are now all pardoned- "Who has forgiven you all trespasses."
Our persons are now fully justified- "Accepted in the Beloved." We are now adopted- "Now are we the sons of God." Oh, let us not sink below the level of this precious and sanctifying truth, but rise to its highest reach and its fullest realization and enjoyment. We lose one of the most powerful incentives to holiness, and with this, one of the sweetest springs of happiness, when we lose sight of our present and complete salvation.
How should our songs of praise wake the sweet echoes of every valley, and of every mountain, and of every plain, along which we travel home to God, for this great salvation which God has provided, which Christ has wrought, and which the Holy Spirit has applied, and which faith has freely received and is privileged fully to enjoy.
"There is therefore now no condemnation to those who are in Christ Jesus." Rest not until you know that you are saved. It is attainable- others have attained it, and so may you. The blood sprinkled, the Spirit's seal impressed, peace with God experienced, the Savior's preciousness felt, and holiness breathed after, will leave not the shadow of a doubt upon your mind as to your present and eternal safety.
How blessedly will this experience bear you through the trials and sufferings and sorrows of your pilgrimage! It will extract poignancy from grief, will blunt the keen edge of affliction, will sweeten the cross, and fringe with gold and purple hues the dark and gloomy clouds which often drape the path we tread.
And mark the place where this loving disciple stood. It was at the feet of Jesus. "And stood at His feet behind Him." How suggestive is this feature of her history. This is the true place of every believer- at the feet of Christ. Everything which attaches to us as believers, and all the dealings of God, point to Christ's feet as our true place. All is designed to bring us there. Nor could we seek a place this shady side of heaven so favored, appropriate, or blessed as this. That we may feel that this is the privilege of all, and that it is accessible to all, let us see what some of the errands are that brings us there.
In the first place, spiritual ignorance brings us to the feet of Jesus. The Lord Jesus is the great Prophet of His Church, her only Divine and authorised Teacher! All God's children are taught of Him, and their great Teacher is Christ the Anointed One. Thus spoke the Lord, "It is written in the prophets, And they shall be all taught of God. Every man therefore that has heard, and has learned of the Father, comes unto me." And again, "Neither knows any man the Father, except the Son, and he to whomsoever the Son wills reveal him." There is a remarkable ignorance of this truth in the present day.
Among the many and marked denials of Christ in high places, the denial of His prophetical office is not the least one. Men are setting themselves up everywhere as God-sent teachers of Divine truth, but who give undeniable evidence that they are but Satan-sent emissaries of human error- and, what is most lamentable and alarming, people love to have it so. But what is our safety? what is our true position? The answer is- humbly sitting at the feet of Jesus. Oh, honored place! Oh favored position of a poor sinner deeply sensible of his spiritual ignorance, and ardently desirous of being taught the truth as it is in Jesus. To this place we must bring all those mysteries of revelation, and apparently inexplicable truths, and discrepant statements, and things hard to be understood, which have perplexed and confounded us. The Bible can only be properly studied in the light of Christ and at the feet of Christ. If we read it merely as a history, or as a poem, or as a system of philosophy, and not as a Revelation of Christ only, we shall fail of compassing the grand end for which the Divine revelation was given. Or, if we sit at the feet of a human Gamaliel, and not at the feet of Jesus only, receiving in humility and faith the gracious words that proceed out of His lips, we shall most assuredly err, not understanding the Scriptures.
Let your place of learning, then, my reader, be at the feet of Jesus. Are you perplexed about a doctrine, or an ordinance, or a question of conscience, or a path of duty? Take your place here, and seek instruction from Him, and in His light you shall see light.
Human reason must come there, the pride of intellect must lie there, preconceived opinion must yield there- sitting there as a little child, desiring the sincere milk of the word- as a humble disciple anxious to know the truth that quickens, sanctifies, and saves. Thus surrendering yourself entirely to Divine teaching, Jesus will show you the way of life, will enlighten your mind, resolve your doubts, and unfold to you more clearly the blessed truth that He Himself is "the Truth," whom to know is life eternal!
I cannot sufficiently reiterate the averment that the Bible can only be clearly understood as it is studied in the light of the Sun of Righteousness, with one intent and aim only to know the Lord Jesus Christ, of whom the Old and the New Testament unitedly testify. Thus the very closing book of the sacred canon, the Revelation of John- mystical and symbolical as it is, is termed "the Revelation of Jesus Christ", not the revelation by Jesus Christ merely, but the revelation concerning Jesus Christ Himself. In other words, it does not mean so much Christ the Revealer, as Christ the Revealed.
And so is Christ the revealed Messiah, Savior, Redeemer of the entire Scriptures of truth. Jesus Christ is the same in the "yesterday" of the Old Testament, in the "today" of the New, and in the "forever" of our endless study. "Jesus Christ, the same yesterday, and today, and forever." "Search the Scriptures," said He to whom gave all the prophets witness, "for they are they which testify of Me."
At the feet, then, of this Divine, skillful, gentle Teacher, humbly take your place as a sincere learner, as a loving disciple, and in His light you shall see light upon all that is essential you should know as a sinner on your way to the judgment. He will open your understanding as He did that of the disciples of old, that you may understand the Scriptures concerning Himself. Let us imitate Mary of Bethany, who also sat at Jesus' feet and heard His word. Affection brings us to the feet of Christ. Love ever delights to be near the object of its preference and regard- In nothing does this sentiment find a truer, or more sacred illustration as in the experience of the believer. Christ is the Object of his supreme affection. He loves Christ more than he loves all other beings, single or combined.
"Do you love Me more than these?" awakes the ready and earnest response from every Christian's heart, "Lord, you know that I love you." It is his supreme happiness, his heaven on earth, to be close to the Savior who sacrificed His life for him, who called him by His grace, and has told him that where He, the Lord, is, there he the disciple shall be.
This sensible realization of the Lord's personal presence constitutes the life and nourishment of daily personal religion. There are many religious professors who do not know what the absence of Christ is, because they know nothing experimentally of His presence. We cannot miss a joy we have never felt, nor pine for a blessing we have never possessed. We must experimentally and personally know Christ, and love Him, and walk with Him, to be conscious of the cold, dreary blank- a blank no creature-good can fill- which the withdrawment of His sensible presence creates. Oh happy soul, so living in the sunshine of the Divine presence as to be sensible of the slightest cloud that veils it! who, wont to walk side by side and in face-to-face communion with the Lord, are more sensitive to any disturbance of your holy joy than the compass is to the slightest variation of the needle.
Behold, then, the true place of love to Christ- His sacred feet. Prove your love to the Savior, my reader, by being often there. Allow no creature to come between you and Jesus. Let not the world allure you from so dear a Friend. Be loving to His person, loyal to His cause, steadfast in His faith, valiant for His truth, holding fast your Christian profession without wavering.
Let sensible nearness to Christ be the life of your religion and the characteristic of your walk. It is the happiest as it is the holiest life on earth. It is one remove only from the life of heaven. There, "in His presence is fulness of joy," and only there. We know the joy in part now when we feel our Lord near to us; but we shall know the "fulness of joy" then when standing in His beatific presence unshared by an object, unshaded by a cloud. Let the cold-hearted intellectualist call this the religion of sentiment if he may. I desire no other.
To walk with God is the loftiest reach of the sanctified intellect, the highest and noblest desire of the human mind. We can only properly employ our thoughts upon God as we move in the orbit of His presence; and no object of contemplation and research, no theme of meditation and discourse, gives such development and expansion to the intellectual powers, as the study of God revealed in His Word and manifest in His Son- Christ Jesus. "This is life eternal, to know you the only true God, and Jesus Christ whom you have sent."
How do we best become acquainted with the mental and moral qualities of an individual but by frequent, close, and confiding communion. Thus is it that in the Enoch-like walk of the child of God he gets to understand God's revealed mind and Christ's unveiled heart, and so his soul revolves near to the Divine, Eternal, and blessed Center.
Not less does the discipline of sorrow bring us to the feet of Jesus. It is sent, indeed, by our blessed Lord for this purpose. Sorrow always brings Christ to our people, and to our homes; and, when sanctified, brings us to His feet in a closeness of acquaintance and fellowship, perhaps, unknown before. We become better acquainted with Him who Himself was acquainted with grief. Oh how near to Christ, our Friend and Brother, does one trial, a single affliction, a solitary sorrow, bring us. We seem scarcely to have known Him before. The stars we admired, the moon we worshiped of created attraction, have withdrawn their light, and the Sun of Righteousness takes their place, and we fall before Him with a depth of adoration and an intensity of love such as no Persian idolater ever felt in the worship offered to his god.
What a volume on the hallowed benefits of affliction might the personal history of each child of God supply! Would not this one stand first and foremost in the catalogue- "I have known more of Christ in this season of suffering, in this hour of sorrow, in the discipline of this one trial, than I ever knew in all my previous experience!" Truly is that sorrow a blessing when we can bless the Refiner for the sorrow, a sorrow that has brought us into the possession of a blessing like this. Oh, how we shrink from the discipline of trial as though some strange and needless thing happened unto us! How we recoil from this assimilation into which it brings us to Jesus, just as if the disciple must be above his Lord; the servant above his Master; the bride a wife of pleasure while the Bridegroom was a man of grief.
O no! we wish it not. We would be like our Lord, and in nothing is the resemblance more complete than in the sacred sorrow which often drapes the spirit and crushes the heart. It is thus we "have fellowship with Him in His sufferings," and are made "partakers of the afflictions of Christ," drinking of the cup He drank, baptized with the baptism with which He was baptized, and treading the path He trod. And all this we come into the experience of when sorrow brings us to His feet.
This, perhaps, in a measure, is a new place in our Christian experience. We have known something of the head of Christ, for we have felt the power of His truth; we have known something of the heart of Christ, for we have tasted the sweetness of His love; but little have we known of the blessing of lying down at the feet of Christ, chastened and humbled, emptied and weaned, willing that He shall be now, and in all future time, our all in all.
For this the discipline has been sent. Your heart, perchance, has wandered far away from the Lord; your walk with Him has been distant, your communion shy. Your mind has grown worldly, and your heart idolatrous; your confidence has become timid, and your love has chilled. The Lord, whose eye has not for a moment lost sight of you, has seen it all, and, loving you, in love has sent the chastening that has brought you back to Himself, and once more you find your heaven at His feet. And then you sing,
"Trials make the promise sweet;
Trials give new life to prayer;
Trials bring me to His feet,
Lay me low, and keep me there."
There, tried and sorrowful believer, bring your grief. Those feet once pierced for you will now hide and soothe you within their very wounds, those wounds at once your healing and your shelter. It is a holy and costly sorrow that brings us closer to Christ. We never learn so much what He is as then. And when we arrive in heaven and fall down before His throne, how fully shall we the sentiment of the Christian poet realize,
"Blessed, there, with a weight of glory,
Still the path I'll never forget,
But, exulting, cry, It led me
To my blessed Savior's feet.
Sweet affliction,
Which has brought to Jesus feet!"
Once more. The feet of Christ is the only place of real safety. There is much in the history of each saint of God to jeopardize his well-being. David was a giant in grace, compared with whom the tallest of us are but dwarfs- and yet listen to his petition, "Hold me up and I shall be safe." Paul was a veteran in the holy war- compared with whom the most valiant of us are but raw recruits- yet listen to his exhortation, "Let him that thinks he stands take heed lest he fall."
Ecclesiastical pinnacles are dizzy and dangerous places for a man of God. Have we ever met with one advanced to distinguished preferment who has not had need to seek a double portion of God's Spirit to rest upon him? I received this holy acknowledgment once from the lips of a prelate whom in earlier years I had known and labored with as the humble pastor of a village parish, but who since then had been advanced to one of the most important sees in the English Church; and God, I believe, gave him the request that he asked. The divine discipline, moreover, through which he subsequently passed, out of which fiery tribulation Christ took him to glory, brought him yet closer to the Master's feet, from where Jesus raised him to that bright world of bliss "where the wicked cease from troubling and where the weary are at rest.''
Here, then, is our true place of safety, wandering from which we are as "a bird that wanders from her nest." Peter had not denied his Lord but for this. Following his Master afar off, the enemy found room to come between him and Jesus; and thus, effecting a momentary separation of the disciple from the Lord, accomplished his downfall. Here, then, is our safety. "He that is down need fear no fall." He that lies "low in a low place" is safe.
Here at the feet of Jesus the world is renounced, self is loathed, sin is forsaken. Satan flies, and God draws near, and we sit and bask in the sunbeams of His smiles. Oh that wherever we are, and with whatever we possess, to the place where this loving woman sat may we repair. Have you talents? bring them here. Have you honors? renounce them here. Have you wealth? deposit it here. Are you useful? lay it at the feet of Jesus. Accumulate, cluster, and concentrate all you are and all you have around those feet that trod for you Gethsemane's garden, and were nailed for you to Calvary's cross, that in all things He may have the pre-eminence.
We now reach an interesting and instructive part of this narrative- the disciple washing Christ's feet: "And washed His feet with tears, and wiped them with the hair of her head." Those tears! who can analyze them? Where shall we find pearls so priceless, or stones so precious and of fairer colors? Away with the notion that true religion is the foe of sensibility, that the gospel of Christ is the patron of stoicism. The religion of Christ is the only religion that unseals the fount of feeling, while it chastens and sanctifies the tears it bids us shed. The divine Author of that religion wept. What more do we need. Let us turn to the weeping disciple.
She washed Christ's feet with the tears of penitence. There are no tears in Christ's view more costly or precious than these. This woman was poor in spirit, humble and contrite, and as she stood behind her sin-forgiving Savior, her tears of godly sorrow for sin rained fast upon his feet. Have you, my reader, wept for sin? Does the recollection of past transgression make you sorry? Does the memory of the sins of your youth, the transgressions of riper years, the sinful infirmities of old age, humble you in the dust? Holier and more precious tears were never shed than those wept for having sinned against God at Christ's feet. "And Peter went out and wept bitterly." "The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit: a broken and a contrite heart, O God, you will not despise." Good words these for penitent souls!
She washed Christ's feet with the tears of faith. Is faith, then, you ask, an emotional grace? Most surely so. "With the heart man believes unto righteousness." And again it is written, "They shall look upon Me whom they have pierced, and shall mourn." It is faith that looks to a crucified Savior, and the sight of the eye melts the heart, and the believing penitent weeps. A humble penitent, this woman was a true believer. These are twin graces in the experience of the saints. Repentance towards God and faith in the Lord Jesus Christ constitute the two cardinal principles of experimental religion. Do you believe in the Lord Jesus, my reader? The Bible does not ask if you work, or if you strive, or if you pray; its great inquiry is, "Do you believe?" "To him that believes is the reward not reckoned of works but of grace." Do you believe in Jesus? Has your faith received Him? Are you willing to be nothing- to cast your deadly doings down, yes, down at Jesus' feet, accepting Him as "made of God unto you wisdom, righteousness, sanctification, and redemption? Come and wash the Savior's feet with the tears that flow from a believing sight of Him whom you have pierced. Faith in Jesus will be as the rod of Moses smiting the rock and causing the waters to flow.
She washed Christ's feet, too, with the tears of grateful love. Jesus had pardoned all her sins, had absolved her from their guilt, and had released her from their power. How natural was the feeling of gratitude, how appropriate this service of love! The most evangelical and genuine contrition for sin flows from a sense of its forgiveness. Nothing breaks the heart so thoroughly as the experience of God's pardoning love, love flowing from a sight of the cross.
Sinai terrifies, but Calvary subdues. The law petrifies, but the gospel melts; terrors repel, but love wins.
"Law and judgment do but harden,
All the time they work alone,
But a sense of blood-bought pardon
Soon dissolves the heart of stone."
Let your love be a weeping love, then it will be a practical love, bathing the feet of Him who virtually bathes yours in the condescending acts of His grace, by which He is among us still as Him that serves.
In lending ourselves to acts of Christian kindness, beneficence, and sympathy, we are still washing the feet of Jesus in the lowly service of love offered in His name to His saints. This fact is much overlooked- Christ as represented by, and as recognized in, His people. We but little reflect that when in any way we wound, or neglect, or despise a true disciple of Christ, we turn our back upon Christ Himself- such is the oneness, the essential, undeniable oneness of the Lord Jesus with His people. Oh how sweet it will be to hear Him say, when He comes in His glory to receive to Himself and to present to His Father His elect Church, "Inasmuch as you have done it unto one of the least of these, my brethren, you have done it unto Me." Then will the cup of cold water given; the soothing administered at the sick-bed; the visit to the house of mourning- be acknowledged and rewarded before an assembled world!
Then followed her holy caress and the sacred annointing. "And kissed his feet, and anointed them with ointment." This mode of courtesy, prevalent among the Jews, and also among the Greeks and Romans, received a peculiar and impressive significance in this instance. The kiss was her confession of Christ, the seal of her love to His person, the expression of her gratitude for His great and distinguishing grace towards her.
The Church of old aspired to kiss the lips of Christ- "let Him kiss me with the kisses of His mouth" -but this disciple was content to kiss His feet! It is our happiness to know that the Lord will accept the lowliest service and the feeblest expression of faith in, and love to, Him. "If I may but touch the border of His garment," is the highest ambition of humble faith; if I may but kiss His feet, is the ardent desire of lowly love. Judas soiled the face of Jesus with the kiss of perfidious treachery- this humble disciple anointed His feet with the sacred kiss of admiring and grateful love. Whose place would we prefer? Lord, let me kiss Your feet, worship at Your feet, keep close to Your feet, until, springing from Your footstool on earth, I find myself adoring, praising, loving You at Your feet in glory.
"That blessed interview, how sweet!
To fall transported at His feet,
Raised in His arms to view His face,
Through the full beamings of His grace.
"Yet, with this prospect full in sight,
I'll wait Your signal for my flight,
For, while Your service I pursue,
I find my heaven begun below."
This narrative impressively illustrates the true service of love. Never did purer love offer a more grateful service to the Savior than that which this sin-pardoned disciple presented. We behold the model of what Jesus desires and expects at our hands. We are Christ's servants if we are Christ's disciples- "for we serve the Lord Christ." Our consecration to the service of Jesus is an evidence of our true love to Him. Love is not an inactive, selfish, indolent grace. "Faith," which is the root of every other grace, "works by love." What will not mere creature-love do and suffer for the object of its regard! See its power in a mother's heart, bending night after night in sleepless watching over her sick and suffering babe! See its power in a father's heart nerving him for toil, and constraining him to plough stormy seas, imperiling life in distant and unhealthy climates, for love of that home-circle around which his untravelled heart still clings.
But infinitely more potent, as divinely more precious, is the love which constrains the disciple of Jesus to consecrate his service to the Lord. Our Christian profession involves a service, as our Christianity imposes a cross. An inactive, indolent disciple of Christ is a contradiction of terms. The moment we become the Lord's, we submit our necks to a yoke, and our backs to a burden, and love makes the one to be easy and the other to be light. Christ's service has many fields and various departments- all may find employment here. There is a sphere for every servant, work for every laborer, employment for every gift. "Son, go work today in my vineyard," is Christ's command to every believer, even to him of but one talent only. There is a field for the evangelist, a sphere for the teacher, scope for the visitor, work for male and female.
Oh, how much is to be done for this fallen, sinful world, speeding to the judgment! What countless, goodly pearls are to be found! what hidden sheep are to be sought! what wandering children are to be brought home of the innumerable seed given of the Father to the Son, for whom He travailed in the sorrow of Gethsemane, the ingathering of whom He shall yet behold with infinite satisfaction, delight, and glory! To aid Him in this work of recovery, He asks our consecrated service, He bids us come to the help of the Lord, to the help of the Lord against the mighty. And shall we, wearing the badge of the Christian disciple, renounce the livery of the Christian servant? Redeeming love, forbid it! We are the Lord's. Henceforth we bind ourselves to acknowledge no Master but Him, to wear no yoke, and to engage in no service but His. Oh impressive thought "Whose I am, and whom I serve!"
Up, then, my Christian reader, to the service of your Lord and Master. Awake you that sheep! Rouse up from selfishness and indolence, and disinter your buried talent. Go to the cross, where, in tears and blood, in suffering and death, your hell was extinguished and your heaven won, and before that cross blush that you should for one moment have hesitated to yield your ransomed powers, gifts, time, and possessions entirely, freely, and supremely to the Savior. From this solemn hour let love constrain you to a simple, self-denying, unfaltering devotion to Him who sacrificed His life for you, and who, at His second coming in glory and majesty, will make you sit down at the marriage banquet, and serve you. "Where I am, there shall also My servant be."
Weary, suffering, persecuted servant of Christ, take heart, for the Master is coming, and rich will be your reward. Bind to your heart His yoke more firmly, His burden more closely, His cross more fondly, for a glittering crown, and a snow-white robe, and a waving palm, and a golden harp await you in glory. Living or dying, be your place and posture that of the loving disciple we have been considering- at the feet of Jesus! There you are happy and safe; there you will derive strength for duty, and grace for trial; and whatever clouds may shade other spots in life, this will be bathed in undimmed and eternal sunshine.
"Sitting at the feet of Jesus,
Oh, what words I hear Him say;
Happy place! so near, so precious,
May it find me there each day.
"Sitting at the feet of Jesus,
I would look upon the past;
For His love has been so gracious,
It has won my heart at last.
"Sitting at the feet of Jesus,
I would seek to be much blest;
There I lay my sins and sorrows,
And, when weary, find sweet rest.
"Sitting at the feet of Jesus,
I would wait my way to see;
Leaning, trusting, and confiding,
Since He orders all for me.
"Sitting at the feet of Jesus,
Holy happiness I find;
In the secret of His presence,
He reveals to me His mind.
"Sitting at the feet of Jesus,
There I love to weep and pray;
While I from His fulness gather
Grace and comfort every day.
"Sitting at the feet of Jesus,
I would choose that better part;
Flee from earthly cares and pleasures,
While I tell Him all my heart.
"Sitting at the feet of Jesus,
I there learn His will divine;
See His smile, and catch His sweetness,
As He whispers, "You are mine."
"Sitting at the feet of Jesus,
I would pray to be kept there;
Clothed and hidden, washed, forgiven,
I may lay aside all fear.
Bless me, O my Savior, bless me,
As I sit low at Your feet;
Oh! lock down in love upon me,
Let me see Your face so sweet.
Give me, Lord, the mind of Jesus,
Make me holy as He is;
May I prove I've been with Jesus,
Who is all my Righteousness.
《生命树》
屋大维·温斯洛著
爱的服事
或:门徒洗基督的脚
「那城里有一个女人,是个罪人,知道耶稣在法利赛人家里坐席,就拿着盛香膏的玉瓶,站在耶稣背后,挨着他的脚哭,眼泪湿了耶稣的脚,就用自己的头发擦干,又用嘴连连亲他的脚,把香膏抹上。」(路7:37-38)
我们已经思想过主一生中最富教训、最为感人的一项举动,就是祂洗门徒的脚。现在要进入我们研读的另一项举动,也几乎同样富有教训、同样感人;我们要把它与前者并列来看,就是门徒洗主的脚。这件事表明,基督与祂的百姓彼此之间有着怎样相通的关切:在祂一方,是救赎的爱和俯就的恩典;在他们一方,是最热切的爱慕和毫无保留的服事。
那女子悄悄走进西门家里,要向救主献上这爱的服事;我们不必推测她究竟是谁。她一生的经历,我们所知甚少。经上惟一记载、也是我们必须知道的一件大事,就是她真实归信了基督。当世上的史册、伟人的功业与排场全都埋没在永恒的遗忘中时,这件事实仍要使耶稣得着颂赞,使神得着荣耀。
我们对归信的本质,认识得何等模糊;对它的重要,也估量得何等不足!在我们一生的历史中,惟有这件事真正值得思想;在今生的种种经历中,惟有这件事塑造并决定我们无穷的将来。与它相比,其他一切事情都不过无关紧要。归信,还是未归信?这才是重大的问题。归信,就是「永生」;未归信,就是「永刑」。那位本身就是永恒真理的主,正是这样说的。
现在让我们来看这位洗救主双脚的女子。我们不可把她认作伯大尼人、拉撒路的姐姐马利亚,也不可把她认作抹大拉的马利亚;据说,后者之所以有这个称呼,是因为她生在玛拿西支派境内一个并不起眼的城镇抹大拉。这女子无疑住在拿因城,经上这样记着她:「那城里有一个女人。」耶稣四处行善时在那里遇见她,向她传讲祂恩典的福音,就是赐给贫穷、失丧罪人的大喜信息;祂又藉着圣灵吸引她归向自己,使她悔改、相信并爱祂。
如今,我们要看见她在耶稣脚前,用爱慕的热泪浸湿祂的双脚,显明那甘美的爱的服事。经上说她是个罪人。难道她比拿因城里所有居民罪更大吗?难道她生来比我们更卑污吗?不。圣经用斩钉截铁的话说:「因为世人都犯了罪,亏缺了神的荣耀」;「没有义人,连一个也没有。」我们所有人都包括在始祖从原有之义中的堕落里;人人都在罪中成胎、在罪孽里出生;人人生来就全然败坏,处处受到玷污。「人心比万物都诡诈,坏到极处,谁能识透呢?」这是我们在恩典中学到的第一课,也是我们踏上归信之路的第一步,就是认识自己是罪人。
亲爱的读者,若主此刻才开始教你这一课,若这个事实像闪电一般闯入你的心,使你从沉沉的睡梦中惊醒,是的,使你从死亡的沉睡中醒来,就当欢喜迎接这新生的自我认识。它正是恩典之日的黎明,而那日必定以永恒的荣耀为终局。哦,能在属灵上、在亲身经历中认识我们是罪人,这是何等重大的一件事!不只在理智上知道,更要从心里知道;不只在会堂的公共礼拜中用嘴承认,更要在内室私下的祷告里,俯伏在以马内利的十字架下,口贴尘埃,向神认罪。
你当确信这至关重要的真理:基督若以赦免的恩典待你,只会把你当作罪人来待你。「我来本不是召义人悔改,乃是召罪人悔改」;「人子来,为要寻找拯救失丧的人」;「基督耶稣降世,为要拯救罪人。这话是可信的,是十分可佩服的。」保罗又说:「在罪人中我是个罪魁。」法利赛人因这可怜的女子是个罪人就藐视她,耶稣却以祂赦罪之爱的盾牌环绕她。
然而,她不只是罪人,还是一个悔改的罪人。神赐给她破碎的心和痛悔的灵,使她谦卑俯伏在祂脚前。亲爱的读者,祂也在你灵魂里作成了这恩典吗?一个人若看自己卑微,世人也就轻看他;但神对自我憎恶的评判,与世人的评判有本质上的天壤之别。世人从他身旁走过,以为他卑微得不值得留意和看顾;神却说:「但我所看顾的,就是虚心痛悔、因我话而战兢的人。」
亲爱的读者,你当亲自而严肃地把这真理应用在自己身上。你骄傲的灵已经降卑了吗?你里面那隐秘而最深的邪恶泉源,已经在你眼前显露了吗?当你在罪与悖逆的大路上往来时,耶稣曾否藉着祂的圣灵、真理和众仆人迎面遇见你,叫你看见罪如同麻风,又像致命的瘟疫,触及并玷污你里面的一切?这些问题何等严肃,何等重大!
然而,悔改的恩典又何等甘美、何等蒙福!伏在神面前的尘土中,既是最降卑、又是最被高举的境况;它既是信徒一生中最苦涩、又是最甘甜的经历。人若没有尝过这苦涩,就尝不到赦罪恩典的甘甜。约翰从天使手中接过小书卷吃下,经上说它「叫你肚子发苦,然而在你口中要甜如蜜」。照样,依神的意思为罪忧愁,起初苦如胆汁;但它把人的灵魂带进神赦免之爱的亲身经历以后,便甜如蜂蜜。
她也是一个蒙赦免、已经得救的罪人。她的罪固然甚大,耶稣的血却显为更大,足以将这一切洗得干干净净。我们太常忽略一个确凿的真理;而忽略它,正是许多属灵灰心的隐秘原因。这真理就是:神的儿女如今已经得救。在神所默示的真理圣经中,救恩总是用现在的时态来讲:「你们得救是本乎恩」;「他便救了我们。」我们若信耶稣,将来绝不会比现在更真实地得救。我们的救恩不是一项已经过去或要到将来才享受的福分,而是现今的福分。我们一切的罪如今都已蒙赦免:「赦免了你们一切过犯。」
我们如今已经完全称义:「这恩典是他在爱子里所赐给我们的。」我们如今已经被收纳为儿女:「亲爱的弟兄阿,我们现在是神的儿女。」哦,我们不可沉到这宝贵而使人成圣的真理之下,倒要上升到它所达到的最高之处,充分领会并享受它。我们若看不见自己现今已经得着完全的救恩,就失去了追求圣洁最有力的激励之一,也失去了福乐最甘美的泉源之一。
神所预备、基督所成就、圣灵所施行,又由信心白白领受并有权充分享用的,乃是这伟大的救恩。我们走在回到神面前的路上,经过一个个山谷、一座座高山和一片片平原时,赞美的歌声理当唤醒各处甘美的回响!
「如今,那些在基督耶稣里的就不定罪了。」在你知道自己已经得救以前,决不可歇息。这是可以达到的;别人已经达到了,你也可以。基督的血已经洒在你身上,圣灵的印记已经盖在你心里;你经历了与神相和,体会到救主的宝贵,又切慕圣洁。这一切必使你心里不再存一丝疑影,知道自己现在和永远都是安稳的。
这样的经历必何等蒙福地扶持你,使你经过天路上的试炼、痛苦与忧伤!它会除去悲痛的尖锐,磨钝患难锋利的刀刃,使十字架变得甘甜,又给那常常笼罩我们前路的阴沉乌云镶上金色与紫色的边缘。
还要留意这位有爱心的门徒站在哪里:她站在耶稣脚前。「站在耶稣背后,挨着他的脚。」她经历中的这一点何等意味深长!每个信徒真正的位置,都在基督脚前。我们身为信徒所领受的一切,连同神对我们一切的带领,都把基督脚前指为我们真正的位置;一切都是为把我们领到那里。在天堂这一边,我们再也找不到一个地方,比这里更蒙恩、更合宜、更为有福。为了使我们体会这是众人都可享的特权,也是众人都可到达的地方,让我们看看有哪些需要会把我们带到祂脚前。
第一,属灵的无知把我们带到耶稣脚前。主耶稣是祂教会的大先知,是教会惟一属神、蒙祂授权的教师!神所有儿女都受祂教训,他们伟大的教师就是受膏者基督。主这样说:「在先知书上写着说,他们都要蒙神的教训。凡听见父之教训又学习的,就到我这里来。」祂又说:「除了父,没有人知道子;除了子和子所愿意指示的,没有人知道父。」如今,人对这真理有着异乎寻常的无知。
今日身居高位者用许多显而易见的方式否认基督,其中否认祂先知的职分,绝不是最轻微的一项。人到处自立,声称自己是神所差来、教导属神真理的教师;然而,他们给出的确凿证据只表明,他们是撒但派来的使者,传播人的谬误。最可悲、最令人警惕的是,百姓竟喜爱这些事。我们的安全在哪里?我们真正的位置在哪里?答案就是:谦卑坐在耶稣脚前。哦,这是何等尊贵的地方!一个可怜的罪人深知自己属灵的无知,又切切渴望领受那在耶稣里的真理教训;他所在的位置何等蒙恩!启示中的种种奥秘、看似无法解释的真理、仿佛彼此不合的陈述,以及一切难以明白、曾使我们困惑茫然的事,我们都必须带到这里。圣经只有在基督的光中、在基督脚前,才能得到合宜的研读。我们若只把它当作历史、诗歌或哲学体系来读,却不把它当作基督的启示,就不能达到神赐下启示的伟大目的。我们若坐在人间迦玛列的脚前,而不单单坐在耶稣脚前,不以谦卑和信心领受祂口里所出的恩言,也必定因为不明白圣经而走入迷途。
亲爱的读者,所以你学习的地方,应当在耶稣脚前。你是否因某项教义、某一种蒙恩之道、某个良心问题或当尽的义务而困惑?就在这里坐下,求祂教训你;「在你的光中,我们必得见光。」
人的理性必须来到这里,理智的骄傲必须伏在这里,先入为主的意见必须在这里让步。你要像小孩子一样坐在这里,爱慕那纯净的灵奶;也要像谦卑的门徒一样,切望认识那使人活过来、使人成圣并拯救人的真理。你这样把自己完全交给神的教训,耶稣就要向你显明生命的道路,光照你的心思,解开你的疑惑,又更清楚地向你展开这蒙福的真理:祂自己就是「真理」,认识祂就是永生!
我无论怎样重申,仍不足以说明这一点:圣经惟有在公义日头的光中研读,才会得到清楚的理解;研读时也只当存一个意图、一个目标,就是认识主耶稣基督,因为旧约和新约一同为祂作见证。因此,神圣正典最后一卷书,即使充满奥秘和象征,仍称为「耶稣基督的启示」。这不只是说启示由耶稣基督而来,更是说启示所关乎的正是耶稣基督自己。换句话说,它的重点与其说是基督作为启示者,不如说是基督作为所启示的那一位。
照样,在整部真理的圣经中,基督就是所启示的弥赛亚、救主和救赎主。耶稣基督在旧约的「昨日」、新约的「今日」,以及我们无穷研读的「永远」里,都是同一位。「耶稣基督昨日、今日、一直到永远,是一样的。」众先知都为祂作见证;祂亲自说:「你们查考圣经」;又说:「给我作见证的就是这经。」
所以,你当谦卑坐在这位属神、智慧而温柔的教师脚前,作一个诚心学习的人,作一个爱祂的门徒;在祂的光中,你必看清一个走向审判的罪人所必须知道的一切。祂要像从前开启众门徒的心窍一样,开启你的悟性,使你能明白圣经中关乎祂自己的话。让我们效法伯大尼的马利亚,她也坐在耶稣脚前听祂的道。爱慕把我们带到基督脚前。爱总以靠近自己所珍爱、所看重的对象为乐;这份情感在信徒的经历中,得到了最真实、最神圣的说明。基督是他至高爱慕的对象;他爱基督,胜过爱其他一切受造者,无论单独一个,还是合在一起。
「你爱我比这些更深吗?」每一个基督徒的心都会立刻热切回答:「主阿,你是无所不知的;你知道我爱你。」亲近那位为他舍命、以恩典呼召他,并应许主在哪里、作门徒的也要在那里的救主,就是他至高的福乐,是他在人间的天堂。
切实体会主亲自与我们同在,乃是每日个人敬虔生活的生命与养分。许多有名无实的信徒不知道失去基督的同在是什么滋味,因为他们从未亲身认识祂的同在。我们从未尝过的喜乐,自然不会感到失落;从未拥有的福分,也不会令我们渴想。我们必须在亲身经历中认识基督、爱祂、与祂同行,才会察觉祂可感的同在隐退时所留下的冰冷凄凉的空缺;没有任何受造之物的好处能填满它。人若活在神同在的阳光中,以至遮蔽这光的最轻微一片云彩也能察觉,他便是有福的人!你素来与主并肩而行,与祂面对面相交;所以,你对圣洁喜乐中任何一点搅扰的感觉,比指南针对于磁针最轻微偏转的反应还要敏锐。
由此可见,爱基督之人真正的位置,就是在祂神圣的脚前。亲爱的读者,你要常到那里,以此证明你对救主的爱。不可容任何受造者进到你与耶稣之间;不可让世界把你从如此亲爱的良友身旁引诱走。要爱祂自己,忠于祂的事业,在祂的信仰上坚定,为祂的真理刚强争战,毫不动摇地持守你所承认的基督徒信仰。
要以切实亲近基督作为你信仰的生命和你行事为人的特征。这是世上最幸福、也最圣洁的生活;它与天上的生活只隔一步。在那里,「在你面前有满足的喜乐」,也惟有在那里才有。如今,我们感到主与我们相近时,已经在一定程度上知道这喜乐;将来,我们站在祂荣福的面前,没有任何对象分去我们的目光,没有一片云遮蔽祂时,就要认识那「满足的喜乐」。冷心的理智主义者若愿意,可以把这称为感情用事的信仰;我却不羡慕别的信仰。
与神同行,是已经成圣的理智所能达到的最高境界,也是人心最崇高、最高贵的渴望。惟有当我们运行在祂同在的轨道中时,才能合宜地思想神。最能使人的理智得到发展、扩张的默想与探究对象、思想与谈论主题,莫过于研究那位在圣道中启示自己、又在祂儿子基督耶稣里显明自己的神。「认识你独一的真神,并且认识你所差来的耶稣基督,这就是永生。」
我们要熟悉一个人的心思与品格,还有什么方法比常常亲近他、与他密切而信任地相交更好呢?照样,神的儿女像以诺一样与神同行时,渐渐明白神所启示的心意,也认识基督敞开的心;于是,他的灵魂就在那属神、永恒而蒙福的中心附近运行。
忧伤的管教同样会把我们带到耶稣脚前。我们蒙福的主差来忧伤,正是为了这个目的。忧伤总把基督带到我们的亲友和家中;忧伤若被神分别为圣,又会把我们带到祂脚前,使我们亲密地认识祂、与祂相交,也许达到从未有过的程度。我们由此更深认识那位亲自「多受痛苦,常经忧患」的主。哦,一场试炼、一次患难、一件孤单的忧伤,竟使我们何等靠近我们的良友和长兄基督!我们似乎从前根本不曾认识祂。我们所惊羡的星辰、我们在受造者吸引力中所敬拜的月亮,都收回了自己的光;公义的日头取代了它们。于是我们俯伏在祂面前,带着深切的敬拜和炽烈的爱,远非波斯拜偶像之人向自己的神明献上敬拜时所能相比。
神每一个儿女亲身的历史,都足以写成一大卷书,述说患难所带来的圣洁益处!在那一长串益处中,列在最前面的,岂不正是这一项吗:「我在这段受苦的日子里、在这忧伤的时刻、在这一次试炼的管教中,对基督的认识,胜过过去全部经历中对祂的认识!」我们若因忧伤而得着这样的福分,以至能为这忧伤称颂那炼净我们的主,这忧伤就真是福分。哦,我们何等逃避试炼的管教,仿佛有一件奇怪而不必要的事临到我们!我们又何等畏缩,不愿藉此变得与耶稣相像;仿佛门徒必须高过他的主,仆人必须高过他的主人,新妇尽可作享乐的妻子,而新郎却作多受痛苦的人。
哦,绝不是这样!我们不愿如此。我们愿意像我们的主;而最能使我们与祂完全相像的,莫过于那常使人的灵披上阴影、使人的心被压碎的圣洁忧伤。这样,我们便「和他一同受苦」,「在基督的苦难上有分」,喝祂所喝的杯,受祂所受的洗,走祂所走的道路。当忧伤把我们带到祂脚前时,我们便进入这一切经历。
在某种程度上,这也许是我们基督徒经历中的一个新位置。我们对基督的头略有所知,因为我们感受过祂真理的大能;我们对基督的心略有所知,因为我们尝过祂慈爱的甘甜;但受管教而降卑、倒空而断奶,俯伏在基督脚前,并甘愿让祂从今直到永远作我们的一切:这样的福分,我们从前所知何等有限!
管教临到,正是为此。也许你的心已经远远离开主;你与祂同行时隔得很远,与祂相交时畏缩疏离。你的心思变得属世,你的心变得拜偶像;你的信靠变得胆怯,你的爱也渐渐冷淡。主的眼目片刻没有离开你;祂看见了这一切。因为祂爱你,就在爱中差来管教,把你带回祂自己那里;于是你又一次发现,你的天堂就在祂脚前。那时你唱道:
试炼使应许甘甜;
试炼使祷告重获生机;
试炼把我带到祂脚前,
使我降卑,留我在那里。
经历试炼、心中忧伤的信徒啊,把你的悲痛带到那里。那双曾为你被刺透的脚,如今要把你藏在祂的伤口里,在那里抚慰你;那些伤口既医治你,又作你的避难所。能把我们带得更亲近基督的忧伤,是圣洁而代价高昂的。就在那时,我们对祂的认识比任何时候都多。将来我们到达天上,俯伏在祂宝座前,便会多么完全地体会那位基督徒诗人的心声:
在那里,蒙福承受极重无比的荣耀,
我仍永不忘记所走的道路;
我要欢然高呼:这道路领我
来到我蒙福救主的脚前。
甘甜的患难啊,
是你把我带到耶稣脚前!
再者,基督脚前是真正安全的惟一所在。神每个圣徒一生的经历中,都有许多事足以危及他的安稳。大卫在恩典中是巨人;与他相比,我们当中最高大的人也不过是矮子。然而,请听他的祈求:「求你扶持我,我便得救。」保罗是圣战中的老兵;与他相比,我们当中最英勇的人也不过是新兵。然而,请听他的劝勉:「自己以为站得稳的,须要谨慎,免得跌倒。」
教会中的高位,对属神的人而言,是令人晕眩而危险的所在。我们可曾遇见一个升到显要尊位的人,却不需要求神加倍赐下圣灵覆庇他吗?我曾亲耳从一位高级教士口中听见这样的圣洁承认。早年我认识他、与他一同服事时,他还是乡村堂会一位谦卑的牧师;后来却升任英国国教最重要的主教职位之一。我相信,神赐给了他所求的。此后,他又经过神所安排的管教;基督把他从火一般的患难中接到荣耀里去。这管教使他更靠近主人的脚;耶稣又从那里把他高举到那明亮蒙福的世界,「在那里恶人止息搅扰,困乏人得享安息。」
所以,这里才是我们真正安全的所在。我们若离开这里,就像「鸟离窝游飞」。彼得否认他的主,正是因为离开了这里。他远远跟随主人,仇敌便找到空隙,插到他与耶稣之间;仇敌使门徒暂时与主隔开,便造成了他的跌倒。所以,我们的安全就在这里。「已经在下面的人,不必怕跌倒。」躺卧在「卑微之地」的人才是安全的。
在耶稣脚前,世界被弃绝,自己被憎恶,罪被离弃;撒但逃跑,神亲近我们,我们便坐在祂笑脸的阳光中取暖。哦,愿我们无论在哪里、无论拥有什么,都来到这位有爱心的女子所坐的地方。你有才干吗?带到这里来。你有尊荣吗?在这里把它弃绝。你有财富吗?存放在这里。你能发挥用处吗?把它放在耶稣脚前。你的一切所是、一切所有,都要聚集、环绕并集中在那双脚周围;这双脚曾为你踏过客西马尼园,又曾为你被钉在髑髅地的十字架上,为要使祂在凡事上居首位。
现在,我们来到这段叙事中一个既有趣又富有教训的部分,就是门徒洗基督的脚:「眼泪湿了耶稣的脚,就用自己的头发擦干。」那些眼泪!谁能把它们分析清楚?到哪里能找到这样无价的珍珠,或这样宝贵、色泽如此美丽的宝石?有人以为真信仰与人的情感为敌,以为基督的福音支持禁绝情感的斯多亚主义;这样的想法应当除去。惟有基督的信仰能开启情感的泉源,同时又洁净并使它所吩咐我们流下的眼泪成圣。这信仰属神的创始者也曾流泪;我们还需要什么证据呢?现在让我们来看这位流泪的门徒。
她用悔改的眼泪洗基督的脚。在基督眼中,没有什么眼泪比这样的眼泪更为珍贵、更有价值。这女子虚心、谦卑而痛悔;她站在赦免她罪的救主身后,依神的意思为罪忧愁,眼泪纷纷落在祂脚上。亲爱的读者,你曾为罪流泪吗?想起过去的过犯,会使你忧伤吗?回想少年时的罪、壮年时的过犯、老年时带罪的软弱,会使你在尘土中降卑吗?因得罪神而在基督脚前流下的眼泪,是世上最圣洁、最宝贵的眼泪。「他就出去痛哭。」「神所要的祭,就是忧伤的灵;神阿,忧伤痛悔的心,你必不轻看。」这些话对悔改的人何等美好!
她用信心的眼泪洗基督的脚。你也许会问,信心也是一种会激动情感的恩典吗?千真万确。「人心里相信,就可以称义。」经上又说:「他们必仰望我,就是他们所扎的;必为我悲哀。」信心仰望被钉十字架的救主;眼睛所见的景象熔化了人的心,于是悔改相信的人便流泪。这女子既谦卑悔改,也是真信徒;悔改与信心在圣徒的经历中是成双的恩典。向神悔改,信靠我主耶稣基督,是亲身经历之信仰的两项基本原则。亲爱的读者,你信主耶稣吗?圣经的首要问题不是你是否作工、是否努力、是否祷告,而是:「你信吗?」作工得工价的,不算恩典,乃是该得的;惟有信的人所得的是出于恩典。你信耶稣吗?你的信心已经领受祂吗?你甘愿成为一无所有的人,把一切致死的行为抛下,是的,抛在耶稣脚前,接受祂成为神使你所得的「智慧、公义、圣洁、救赎」吗?来吧,因信仰望那位被你刺透的主,让涌出的眼泪洗救主的脚。信靠耶稣,就像摩西的杖击打磐石,使水涌流出来。
她也用感恩之爱的眼泪洗基督的脚。耶稣已经赦免她一切的罪,免除罪责,又释放她脱离罪的权势。这感恩之情何等自然,这爱的服事又何等合宜!最合乎福音、最真实的为罪痛悔,出于人知道自己的罪已经蒙赦免。没有什么比亲身经历神赦免的爱更能彻底打碎人的心;这爱正是从仰望十字架而来的。
西奈山使人恐惧,髑髅地却使人降服。律法使心刚硬如石,福音却使心融化;威吓把人推开,爱却赢得人心。
律法与审判所作的,
若始终孤立无援,只会使心刚硬;
但一旦体会宝血买来的赦免,
顷刻就使石心融化。
愿你的爱是流泪的爱,这样,它也会成为付诸行动的爱,去洗那位主的脚。其实,祂藉着俯就施恩的种种举动,已经洗了你的脚;祂如今仍在我们中间,作服事人的那一位。
我们奉耶稣的名善待、帮助并体恤祂的众圣徒,投身这些基督徒的善行时,就是在卑微的爱的服事中,仍旧洗耶稣的脚。有一个事实常被人忽略,就是基督由祂的百姓代表,人也在祂的百姓身上认出祂。我们很少想到:无论用什么方式伤害、忽略或藐视基督的真门徒,都是转身背对基督自己。主耶稣与祂的百姓就是这样紧密地联合;这种联合真实而不可否认。等祂在荣耀中降临,要把蒙拣选的教会接到自己那里,又把教会呈献给父时,我们听见祂说:「这些事你们既作在我这弟兄中一个最小的身上,就是作在我身上了。」那将是何等甘甜!到那时,递出的一杯凉水、在病床边给予的抚慰、对哀恸之家的探访,都要在聚集的全世界面前得到承认和奖赏!
然后,是她圣洁的亲吻和神圣的膏抹。「又用嘴连连亲他的脚,把香膏抹上。」这种礼节盛行于犹太人中,也流行于希腊人和罗马人中;但在这件事上,它得到一种独特而动人的意义。她的亲吻,是对基督的承认,是她爱慕祂本人的印记,也是她感谢祂向自己施行伟大而特别之恩的表达。
古时的教会盼望亲吻基督的嘴唇:「愿他用口与我亲嘴。」这位门徒却满足于亲祂的脚!我们何等有福,能够知道主必悦纳最卑微的服事,也必悦纳人向祂表达的最微弱信心与爱。「我只摸祂的衣裳繸子」,是谦卑信心最高的愿望;我只要亲祂的脚,是卑微之爱热切的渴望。犹大用奸诈背叛的亲吻玷污耶稣的脸;这位谦卑的门徒却以惊羡、感恩之爱的圣洁亲吻膏抹祂的脚。我们愿意处在谁的位置上呢?主啊,愿我亲你的脚,在你脚前敬拜,紧紧靠近你的脚;直到我从你地上的脚凳跃起,发现自己在荣耀中仍在你脚前敬拜你、赞美你、爱你。
那蒙福的相见何等甘甜!
满心欢喜地俯伏在祂脚前,
被祂抱起,得见祂的荣面,
沐浴在祂恩典完全的光辉里。
然而,这盼望虽清楚摆在眼前,
我仍要等候你召我展翅飞升;
因我在追求服事你的时候,
已发觉天堂在尘世开始。
这段叙事动人地说明了何为爱的真服事。从来没有比这更纯洁的爱,向救主献上更感恩的服事;这是蒙赦罪的门徒所献上的。我们从中看见,耶稣愿意并等候我们献上的典范。我们若是基督的门徒,也就是基督的仆人,因为「我们所事奉的乃是主基督」。我们把自己分别出来服事耶稣,正是我们真实爱祂的证据。爱不是一种毫无行动、自私怠惰的恩典。作为其他一切恩典根源的「信心」,乃是「生发仁爱的信心」。仅仅出于受造者的爱,为了它所爱慕的对象,尚且有什么不能作、不能忍受呢!请看这爱的能力怎样运行在母亲心里:她一夜又一夜俯身守望自己患病受苦的婴孩,彻夜不眠!也请看它怎样运行在父亲心里:他因爱那始终牵系着他那颗未远游之心的家人,就鼓起勇气辛劳,犁过风暴的海洋,在遥远而有害健康的地方冒生命危险。
然而,催逼耶稣的门徒把自己的服事分别献给主的爱,大有无穷的能力,也因出于神而更加宝贵。我们承认自己是基督徒,就包含一项服事;我们活出基督信仰,也必须背负一个十字架。一个毫无行动、懒惰怠慢的基督门徒,本身就是自相矛盾的说法。我们归属主的那一刻,就把颈项服在轭下,把肩背负在重担之下;爱却使轭容易,使担子轻省。基督的服事有许多禾场和不同工场;每个人都能在其中找到工作。每位仆人都有服事的范围,每个工人都有当作的工,每样恩赐都有发挥之处。「我儿,你今天到葡萄园里去作工」,是基督给每一个信徒的命令,连只有一千银子的也包括在内。有传福音者的禾场,有教师的工场,有探访者施展的范围,也有男女各自当作的工作。
哦,这个已经堕落、满有罪恶、正奔向审判的世界,有多少工作等着人去作!有多少美好的珍珠等着人去寻得!有多少隐藏的羊等着人去寻找!又有多少走迷的儿女等着人领回家!他们都是父赐给子的无数后裔;祂曾在客西马尼的忧伤中为他们劳苦,将来又要看见他们被招聚,得到无限的满足、喜乐与荣耀。为了在这寻回人的工作上协助祂,祂要求我们献上分别为圣的服事;祂吩咐我们「来帮助耶和华,帮助耶和华攻击勇士」。难道我们佩戴基督门徒的徽章,却要脱去基督仆人的衣服吗?救赎的爱啊,绝不可容许这事!我们是属主的。从今以后,我们约束自己,除了祂以外不承认别的主人,不负别的轭,也不从事别的服事。哦,这思想何等动人:「我所属、所事奉的神!」
所以,亲爱的基督徒读者,起来服事你的主、你的主人。沉睡的人啊,醒来!从自私和懒惰中奋起,把埋藏的才干挖出来。到十字架那里去;在那里,祂藉着眼泪和宝血,藉着受苦和死亡,熄灭了你的地狱,为你赢得天堂。你若有一刻迟疑,不肯把已经赎回的能力、恩赐、时间和财物完全、甘心而至高无上地献给救主,就当在那十字架前羞愧。从这严肃的时刻起,让爱催逼你,用单纯、舍己而毫不动摇的心献给祂。祂曾为你舍命;将来在荣耀与威严中第二次降临时,又要叫你坐在婚筵上,亲自服事你。「我在哪里,服事我的人也要在哪里。」
疲倦、受苦、遭逼迫的基督仆人啊,振作起来,因为主人就要来,你的赏赐必然丰厚。要把祂的轭更牢地系在心上,把祂的担子更紧地负在肩上,把祂的十字架更亲爱地抱在怀里;因为荣耀里有闪耀的冠冕、雪白的衣袍、挥舞的棕树枝和金琴等候你。无论活着还是死去,你的位置和姿态都当与我们一直思想的那位有爱心的门徒相同,就是在耶稣脚前!在那里,你幸福而安稳;在那里,你必得着尽义务的力量,也得着经受试炼的恩典。人生别处无论被什么云彩遮蔽,这里总沐浴在永不暗淡、直到永恒的阳光中。
坐在耶稣脚前,
哦,我听见祂说何等言语;
幸福之地!如此亲近,如此宝贵,
愿每日都能在那里见到我。
坐在耶稣脚前,
我要回顾往日;
因祂的爱满有恩典,
终于赢得了我的心。
坐在耶稣脚前,
我愿寻求多多蒙福;
在那里放下我的罪与忧愁,
疲倦时,寻得甘甜安息。
坐在耶稣脚前,
我要等候,直到祂显明我的道路;
倚靠、信赖、全心交托,
因祂为我安排一切。
坐在耶稣脚前,
我寻得圣洁的幸福;
在祂同在的隐密处,
祂向我显明自己的心意。
坐在耶稣脚前,
我喜欢在那里流泪祷告;
又从祂的丰满中,
每日汲取恩典与安慰。
坐在耶稣脚前,
我要选择那上好的福分;
逃离世上的思虑和宴乐,
向祂倾诉我全部的心。
坐在耶稣脚前,
我在那里学习祂属神的旨意;
看见祂的笑脸,领受祂的甘甜,
听见祂轻声说:「你是属我的。」
坐在耶稣脚前,
我要祈求蒙保守留在那里;
得着衣裳与遮蔽,洗净而蒙赦免,
便可除去一切惧怕。
我的救主啊,求你赐福我,赐福我,
因我谦卑坐在你脚前;
哦,求你以爱垂顾我,
使我得见你甘美的荣面。
主啊,求你赐我耶稣的心,
使我像祂一样圣洁;
愿我显明自己曾与耶稣同在,
祂就是我的一切公义。